The First Verse

So guess what? I don't have it all figured out. But this is what I do know, for fact (and some added color commentary):

-There is a God. (Did you know that the only reason Albert Einstein--smartest man ever, besides Tim Boyd---wasn't a "Christian" was because after going to a few different churches, he said that the God they were preaching was not big enough to be the God of the Universe.)
-That God, for some reason beyond human understanding, created humans...and loves us so much he wants us to spend eternity with Him.
-Pretty much since the beginning of time, there has been this system set up where the only way to atone for anything you've done wrong would be to offer a sacrifice to God.
-Human beings started to really suck.
-That made God sad...cuz He wants us to spend eternity with Him, and there weren't enough goats to kill, so that dream of His was getting to be less and less likely.
-He decided that the only way it would be possible would be to send His Son to live here and be the ultimate sacrifice so that whoever followed His example and loved Him could end up carrying out God's ultimate plan.
-Basically. Very basically.

And that's it. That's all I know.

I've made You promises a thousand times.

I try to hear from heaven, but I talk the whole time.

I think I made You too small.

I've never feared You at all, no.

If You touched my face, would I know You?

Or looked into my eyes, could I behold You?

I have come across a lot of people who think they know more. Who think they could take it if God looked them square in the eyes. But I find that I have the most respect and trust in the people who say, "I am not smart, but here's what I think..."

This first verse of this song is the one that really got me hooked. It's exactly me.

I've made You promises a thousand times. Check
I try to hear from heaven, but I talk the whole time. Check.
I think I made You too small. Check. Check. Check.
I never feared You at all. Check.

And although I'd never really thought about it like this before, in some way or another, I have thought, if He was right here, would I know Him? And I have never doubted that if He looked me in the eyes I would pee my pants and start hyperventilating. Or something.

I'm not a preachy person. This post sounds kinda preachy. But it's just me...thinking onto a computer. Word vomit, basically. And admitting to all 3 people who read this that I know nothing.